Three years ago today my husband, Stephen had open heart surgery. It was such an emotional rollercoaster for me. I still remember being in the waiting room and taking the calls from the OR. The surgery was long and so they would call me to keep me updated. I remember them telling me that he was on the heart and lung machine, and me just crying. As a nurse I could picture and had seen what that looked like. That meant that his heart was completely stopped and they were working on it. Can you imagine, the one that you love more than anything, with their heart STOPPED?!?! That was hard and it was hard seeing him in pain trying to recover as his chest healed. It was weird adjusting to the new sound of his heart as I would lay by him. I had gotten so used to the old one that I felt like I was laying by a different man because of the new heart beat.
I did learn something that I think about often. During this time I had many family and friends help us. There were those who would call to see which night dinner could be brought over, or just drop by and pick up my kids, or grab laundry to do. I remember Brittany coming to the hospital with dinner for her and I (Stpehen was still NPO). Brittany and I sat there and talked forever. She took me into another world as we laughed about this and that.
Then there were those who would say, “let me know if I can do anything?” I hated that phrase. Like I was really going to call, to let them “know”. Didn’t they already realize that I needed help NOW! If they were going to do something, then just say what can I do, and find something to do. It’s sad to say but many members of my church would use this phrase. They probably meant well, but it’s not just the THOUGHT or OFFERING to help, its the actual ACTION of service that benefits those in need. It was my true friends and non-member friends that would just “DO” the sweet little acts of service.
Anyway, that is what I learned from this hard experience. I try very hard NOT to use “the phrase”, but to ask when I can bring in a meal, or what day I can take your kids.
AND Stephen, I’m sure glad that you are still here with me! I sure love you!